Eighteen years went by in a blink. Those years flashed before me as I drove to your college with my car packed full of supplies. You tailed behind me in your car, also stacked to the brim; half of which I needed to return home with me…It was your love of fashion that pushed you to pack enough clothing to dress a entire campus. As I checked to make sure you were still behind me in my rearview mirror, I reminisced about teaching you to drive, the day you got your permit, and taking you for your license. Unfortunately, you drive like me...Your car will always be banged up and lived in.
Watching you say goodbye to your boyfriend was torture. As the two of you welled up with tears, so did I. I am so grateful for him, because he set the bar high as to how a female should be treated. You will never settle for less now. I flashed back to all of your childhood crushes and your first broken heart; which broke mine watching you suffer.
I laid on your bed eating your roomie's Seaweed strips, (which I now have developed a strange craving for), and remembered the timeframe in your childhood where you wanted me to sleep with you. I secretly have longed for a sleepover ever since.
As I hugged you goodbye, I took in the smell of your hair and whispered everything I wanted you to know. Last night you texted you were homesick, but I wonder how much of that was just your way of letting me know you love me and I will not be forgotten.
I didn't cry on the way home as I expected to. It's because I know you are ready. I know it's time. You are with me in my heart; every second, every hour of every day. You are one of the greatest gifts of my lifetime. I hope someday you have your own daughter and get to experience the amazing love of the mother-daughter bond.
The world is now at your fingertips; I know you will seize it because you have an unrelenting sense of adventure, love of people, and a heart of gold. Time to soar, Baby Girl. xoxo
Have you recently moved a son or daughter into college? Did you find it easy? Difficult? Did you feel your child was ready? Did it trigger any poignant memories for you? What is your wish for him or her?